im moving back to blogger.

www.dawneleanor-diary.blogspot.com

Couldn’t bear to leave all the past entries.

friends pls help me to change back my link. = )

rannnnddddoommm

1st time in my life, darlie says he will be giving me $200 for shopping cause he knew that im saving up and im spending my money wisely which ends me up with being so pathetic recently.

1st time in our approximate 2 years relationship that he gave me money, from when we started till now i spend on my own on the things that i want. if you know me well enough, you’ll know that i’ve never ever try to spend off darlie’s money on the things that i want, and had never requested in doing so, therefore it comes to me a little awkward.

but dennnnnn…

Im touched, because he saw me in my difficult moments knowing i am saving up really hard for our marriage and he tries to make me happy by letting me live off a moment of what my age girls are doing.

Marriage is something that is really difficult, when you need to plan and save. It really need a year preparation.

Tomorrow is a public hoiliday! and our plan is to go shopping. See how it goes, ill still be giving tuitions and i have to look after best friend as family is all out to genting. leaving me best friend and darlie at home.

Hope daddy and mummy makes good use of the $600 i have given them. Double up the money at the casino. hahaha.

I will be missing them, daaadddyyy and mummmyyyyy. mucks!

A little adds up to much

Never underestimate the power of saving up daily coins.

It is always a routine that i saved up my coins at the end of the day into my glass bottle.
This time round i’ve decided on 20cents.

Was walking pass the ikea glass bottle yesterday and saw that it was almost full. And being the curious me, I then decided to take them all out to do a little counting on my coins asset. Was flabbergasted i should say, as it adds up to almost 200bucks. $186 to be exact.
They are 20cents, what would i have expected?? but nevertheless, i still felt a pinch of satisfaction as i really did manage to save. And a little adds up to quite an amount logic is therefore strengthen.

I’m changing them into notes and giving them to my mum, and some to my bank to add up my savings. I’ll be starting a new journey of collecting $1 coins, which i had already had about tens lying in another glass bottle. = )

p.s My mistake is you. Learnt!

Disgusted

UGLY

for every aspect of you.
save yr Hippocratic behavior for others.

I know where u’re coming from.

Back from all outings

Genting, rather relaxing i should say except for the 1st day when my head hurts. Xing zai did came over on the 1st night to gamble with me. Its been 5 years since i saw this childhood cousin of mine. = ) He really made the effort in coming down, and i really hope to see him again soon!

Finally i conquer the topgun! after so many trips to genting since im at the age of 8. I shall say its really a challenge. Forced myself to open my eyes damn wide when i fall from the heights.  its like you’re falling from a 20 storey high floor. freak the hell outta us. But at least i told myself 青春不留白, now i’ve no regrets.  = ))))))

Im sooooo going up again for the gambling. This time round luck wasnt that good, won my expenses there only. won some on the 1st day and on the 2nd day, Lost almost 1k but fight it all back using my last 100. in the end, won about 400rm, which covers my expenses. = ))

Thanks for the surprise. it was a great night after im back from genting.
For now, back to reality.. one after another, i cant take this shit.

Back to square one

Its devastating to know that sometimes human can be that selfish. To the extent of not lending a helping hand when someone is already driven to the wall. When I’ve exhaust my brain for all the solutions that I’ve came upon with. And for that one solution that I’ve thought of, and would have helped me along with my “Hey 2009, you suck big time”. Someone choose to block it off, and smack me right back to the wall.

Sometimes when things get really heavy on my head. ill just go out instead of locking myself at home. And i just wanna thank my friends around me. Not for hearing me out, but its just the companion that matters. Liquor did helped for that moment but the next day it always seems always awful + a little brighter, after speaking what i had been burying in my heart. After so long, there are still certain matters that I’ve not been sharing, so get ready my friends. It will be a whole bunch of ranting when i head up to genting or PJ, labyrinth, sessions or some heart wrecking leashing off stress in the DF toilet moments.

“hey 2009 you suck big time” i really wish that i would get that title off my head.

BTW, thanks sis for the present at Europe. Loveeeeeeeeeeeee it!

Rainbow after the VERY HEAVY RAIN =)))

Last day of the bridal fair, so Simon and I went there. got ourselves a wedding package which cost $3288. Quite a reasonable pricing with the amount of things I’m given with. Had been quite vexed for the past months. But it seems like i have finally found a temporary solution to the problem. And from the bottom of my heart i really want to thank my daddy for supporting me. No parents would want to see their children being driven to a dead end and daddy has been really nice. = )

Been using word press for a period of time, and yea.. there are definitely pros and cons which i’m trying to adapt to it. Tomorrow is my eldest sister’s traffic police test. Although we are having some problems as she hasn’t been really good with supporting my ideas, ill be still driving them down to support her together with my mummy and elder sister and after which would be ladies shopping time!

I really believe in working on doing good deeds, when mummy went to the temple to help get the dates for when my wedding. The priest stated that Simon and i had to do more good deeds, i don’t know about the others but i am one who believes in what priests says. So yea. Had been doing good deeds and was heading down temples and giving donations. And what I’ve sow i had ripped. After 2 long years, finally i had strike a little for my allowance. = )) Ok, not only about striking money but look, I’ve even found better ways to settle my problems. And now, I’m a happier person. And when I’m happier, everything else in my life comes hand in hand. Therefore life is better.
The priest says ill have t do more good deeds in order to live off better.
So ill continue doing it as the past 3 to 4 months were really no where near ideal.

p.s I’m leaving on the Saturday back to Melaka.
Outta Singapore, but with a extremely happier mood.

A hell of a night….

What a night with fun and laughter. flashes going everywhere, trying to snap some goodies out of it. Hor fanni ding..
3 groups of friends down at fly and boilers. Had yea, it was like running stages everywhere. Its fun, and its been really long that i had done all these with my beloved friends.

it is that very long since i kept every single trouble in me. I give myself 3 months, and within this 3 months that i’ve not spoken to anyone about my problems. i feel that deep inside of me, it was so hard for me to hang on. Emotions were not very well controlled. really not.. everyday was tears no laughter. I dont know since when that i’ve started to boiled up every little single problem in me, i’ve started to change to a person who doesnt shares out what im thinking and going through, but thanks ding ding for her advise and her ears in the toilet where all the liquids flow haha, im feeling much better now. We must do it again with jasmine! She’s hell of a fun.

Its a must that i must live my life happily.
Get out of singapore.

Protected: *Hint, Unit number of my childhood estate.

This post is password protected. To view it please enter your password below:

Password:

2nd Genting of the year

Genting trip booked, on the 9th of april to 11 april. might be heading KL. Perhaps, shall see how it goes. Hope my cousin would be able to meet me at genting.

I cant wait to get out of Spore.

Im headed for melecca soon, on the 4th of april, and after 2 days of being back in s’pore. ill be heading off again.

i wanna BKK trip. But it was too late for planning. Shall wait for mid of this year.